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Damn. somehow i feel like i just woke up and took a long look at my life for the first time in a very long time, and just hear myself mutter out "what the hell happened to me?" sometimes i don't get myself, it proves that i am only human after all. sometimes i feel like the need for conversations. sometimes i feel the need for silly talks. sometimes i feel the need to be close to someone. sometimes i feel the need to talk about me. sometimes i feel the need to just shut up and listen. sometimes i just want to be alone. being human, this human being. the problem is its getting out of hand. really out of hand. i can't focus anymore. i don't bother anymore. i just seem to have lost the will to do anything worth doing. and i just let it pass by. i need something. another problem is that i don't know what makes me happy anymore. yeah i laugh. i have fun all the time. i have a blast with great company most of the time. our dencio's is the best spot for miles around. asking for more will already be being greedy. but i just can't shut the numbing feeling inside. that big question just eating up inside and i don't even know what it is. Watcha think? i'll get back to you when i find some answers.