Going, going..... gone!

2006 has almost left. thank God! good bye, you friggin' year!
2006 was a year of mishaps. strange things coming and going in my life. all year it just kept bobbing up and down. and now its over. its finally 2007. what matters of headaches will i get this year? i dunno. but i'm sure it will be better than the last. i can't wait.
is it a common wonder that one reflects on there life as the year ends? now that its the last day of the year, i just can't help but to look back and see the trail i took. what do i see? i see tons of people that moved my life in directions i never knew. i see series of phantasmagorical events that shaped me to be better. and i see all the follies i did as i blundered about my way. life plays a sad and exciting game. and i played it like any normal(?) man should. i guess the last year wasn't so bad after all. yeah, there were tons of disappointments, but they were also dozens of chances to learn and improve myself. i knew new things about myself and the people around me. i learned lots in the matters of social affairs. and i learned that i really am stubborn. i learned lots of things.
hmmmm... so there. i have more to say... but i don't go into details so... i'll just sum it up:
i thought the previous year was bad, but i guess it was a good year to learn things, and these things that i learned will probably shape me til years on end. Happy happy new year to all! may you all find something this coming year that you can take deep into your lives... this will be an exciting year.

Yeah yeah

yeah i know i complain a lot here in this blog (where else can i channel my frustrations) but i think something's different in the air. so let me complain some more. its Christmas. am i complaining about Christmas? i guess. its just that this season brings unstirred emotions that are better off gone. *sigh*
what to do? might as well try to cover it up with the "season of gift giving and merry making." hey, its so easy to cheer other people up than to cheer yourself right? so i'll just succumb to the roller-coaster ride of the season's sprite hoping not to notice it passing by. *sigh*
Christmas always pass by.

The Scientist

Coldplay

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are,
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart,
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
I know let's go back to the start,
Running in circles,
Chasing our tails, heads on a silence apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
I'm going back to the start.

I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart,
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Did not speak as loud as my heart,
Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh when I rush to the start,
Running in circles,
Chasing tails,
Coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part,
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard,
Oh take me back to the start.

Never so Lost...

These are the times when i wish God was an actual person whom you can sit down with and just ask what the fuck's going on. i never felt so confused. and alone. i really shouldn't feel this way. but its here. i'm here. no matter how shallow and petty it seems, i'm stuck with this feeling. just waiting for that divine whisper to my ear to clear my head. just a little voice that would set my heart free. but its not like that. it doesn't happen that way. we have to learn things through ourselves. we have to know pain inside and out. for ourselves. and no matter how helpless we are at the rising situations, there are no divine whispers from God. all that there is to guide our way is how we interpret the path He has set before us. unfortunately, i think God is too abstract for our human minds. our worldly eyes fixated on the shallow desires. unable to comprehend the vastness of it all. purity, virtue, morality. no matter how "good" they seem they still desaturate our sight as much as any sin. i do not want what is "good", i want what is "right". all i'm asking God is to show me what is right. because no matter how good my heart's intention are, it will never be noticed. it will never show. i just want to know what is the right thing during these hallowed times. so here we are. me writing away these little thoughts, you reading this, thinking/waiting for the whole point of this. is there a point? i don't know. this is an abstract blog. blogging details won't get me anwyhere but trouble. not everyone wants to hear all my thoughts. but then why continue reading these blogs? i don't know. still. so much to say. keep it locked up inside, don't talk about it. just talk about the weather.