Wow.

A lot of things are happening in our lives now that we just can't help but to stop and take a deep breath for all its worth. Good, bad, it doesn't really matter. These things that are happening to us are here, and we are still sitting in front of the computer, having the leisure of looking back at those times and claim we are still breathing. for better or for worse? for the best, i'm sure. these are experiences that says we are alive.
I jogged this morning under the clear black morning sky. looking up, looking at God, i watched how small everything really is. no matter how gigantic those stars are, they'll still look small in our eyes. no matter how big we feel, or how intricate and complex are lives are, we are still nothing compared to the vastness of everything. i thanked God.
Humility? why do i have to write my thoughts here i start to wonder. maybe because i want those who read here to know me to try to feel the optimism of life. that every terrible thing that happens to us are there for a reason. for our growth and nothing more. "what does not kill me, makes me stronger." no matter how pessimistic that phrase sounds, its true. we do need to be strong in life, and there are no other ways to be strong than to experience every hardships in life that would humble us. it is all up to us to rise against such adversities and claim we have grown. that we are better than who were before any crisis.
so here i sit. drinking coffee with a cigarette, watching the day unfold and all the challenges it brings, strumming my guitar, having the taste of life and finally find solace in my worn-out room. smiling for these challenges' worth. and pray that tomorrow will finally bring rest.