Novocaine For The Soul

Eels

Life is hard
And so am I
You'd better give me something
So I don't die
Novocaine for the soul
Before I sputter out
Life is white
And I am black
Jesus and his lawyer
Are coming back
Oh my darling
Will you be here
Before I sputter out?
Guess who's living here with the great undead
This paint by numbers life is fucking with my head, once again.
Life is good
And I feel great
Cuz mother says I was
A great mistake
Novocaine for the soul
You'd better give me something to fill the hole
Before I sputter out.

Blah blah yada yada yakidi yak

I HAVE NOT BLOGGED FOR A LONG TIME.

Everytime i go close to blogging i would just write down why i can't blog, and how busy i am. That's just bull. I don't want to blog those. the whole world is busy enough for me to add rants about my own petty, frolicsome life. and even when i get pass that, i would just write some senseless things about sense in the world. Nah, me no likeee. Then what is there to blog?

Trials, for one thing. when the everyday battles of daily life seem to hush when something wrong is brewing. that's worth writing about.

Beauty, another. What more gives sense to opening our eyes other than for beauty?

Good times. Ahhhh... a lot of those have passed this blog by.

Madness. what is a tale without one?

Thanksgiving. yes, better start with that. I thank... well... just about everyone. God, the giver. Friends, the ever sanctuaries. Work, ah... food. Smokes, self explanatory. Car, the ever dependable. Students, makes my life oh some much complicated. and many, many fuckin' more. Thank y'all!

There are so much things i want to blog about. no coherent thoughts though. I'll just write here, whatever and whenever:

º¿º Did i mention i'm still sick? AAAAARRRRGGHHHH!!! the dreaded pityriasis rosea... damn you pityriasis rosea, damn you!!! it still burns... it has been for more than two months. just a small patch and i am finally rid of it!

º¿º i looove digital painting. i will make a career out of it. ideas, check. new hobby, check. skill set, check. motivation, errr...

º¿º insomnia. its killing me.

º¿º i like teaching. i think if i take it seriously, it can be my career. but then, there's a bigger world out there. i can go back to teaching when i have tons more to give to people.

º¿º I know no one really reads my blog, or if someone does i'm pretty sure its rare. i don't mind. maybe that's one thing i like about blogging. just let it out. and when someone actually takes time to read it, you'll know someone actually cares... or them sombitch is jus too bored o' doin' nuthin'.

º¿º insomnia. its killing me.

º¿º so much to write, yet so few internet cards. hehe, yes, i know i should get dsl or something. its just that i'm at work seven days a week and i'm not around to take care of it and i don't really know if my family should actually be using the internet...
... i'll be back.